Everytime I open my phone, I add something to my notes app. Every new song I hear, add. Every old song I hear, add. Every video, transition effect, interesting sound, cool bit of lighting adds to the every growing list of things I want to explore on my YouTube channel…that I have yet to start.
When I eventually get going with filming and sharing my thoughts, I won’t lack for ideas. Having ideas has never been a problem for me, executing them, however, is a little harder.
It’s a type of paralysis, I guess. It’s like that feeling when you’re waking up, your mind is up but your body’s not there yet. You have the will to move but something isn’t quite connecting and no movement happens. You can feel the strain of lifting up your arm, it’s like it’s pushing against a force that you can’t see but you sure as hell can feel it. However, if someone was watching you, they’d see no movement, just your eyes wildly darting around the room trying to figure out why your body isn’t doing the simple thing of just moving!
That’s what getting started feels like. I desperately want to start, all the tools are there, I’ve got some time in my life’s schedule but something is stopping me.
I’ve created the idea of this world where I can let my imagination fly. That’s the concept of my soon-to-be (maybe) channel. If I can pull it off, it’ll be so much fun. For me, not sure about anyone else. But there’s something stopping me.
Something.
Fear, perhaps. What if I fail? What if I look stupid? What if I just can’t do it? Maybe all my ideas are better left in the notes app. The void where all the good ideas go to die.
Do or die.
Create or cry.
Just as much as I feel stuck, the want is still there to create so what do I do?
Keep moving!
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